this past week's been insane. too much homwork, i have like 4 projects due next week. in sane.
i still dont like one of my new teachers but the rest r chill. also why do people suck? just like, in general. I feel like recently after separating myself from the majority ive been able to see just how deluded some people are from reality. abolutely disheartening shit. wish i could get into detaile but my blog ain't political lmaoo, just know that its bad.

But now that i dont feel conditioned to stay quiet so people dont judge me, i just speak my truth. Incredibly scary but i just HAVE to say sometihimg. buhh.
anyways i have a headache, uh, see ya next week. OH BUT I DID GET INTO AP PSYCHOLOGY!!! yippi :D

well school's wild. i'm applying for AP psychology this year, i took AP bio last time, i lost some sleep for it back then so i hope psych isnt as baddddd...
I also have calculus and, dude, im so bad with numbers. like actually crying-level bad. oughhh. ts pmo icl.

and dont even start with college bro, i had a scare recently thinking the admission exam was soon and literally died. It's apparently next year but my dumb ass took a peek at the practice exam and I was so lost.
fuck the college life bro. i need to study more.

first day of school was uh definitely something!
I may have gotten a little heated at something one of my professors said, but wtvr. Biting my tongue and people pleasing is my specialty so. But this did help me reconnect with one of my old teachers, which i greatly esteem. So i suppose it's a win in the end.
I'll just have to deal with ts i guess. loll

holy shit, my week's been really hectic n i havent had time to work on the new blog or update womp womp
ALSO I FOUND A SPIDER IN MY ROOM A FEW DAYS AGO AND IM SCARED SHITLESS OF THOSE THINGS. IT WAS BAD.
but anyways, the undertale fixation has swallowed me whole again, and once my friend asked me my plans for halloween (its literally 2 months from now, chill.../lh) i decided something. i will be cringe be free.
and be sans undertale. LOL

that aside, AHH IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL TMRRW. and apparently seniors gotta give a school tour to the new students??? so wish me luck with that... <\3

WAHH, update post jumpscare. I'm trying to cut back on the posting cause it'll mean i have less stuff to transfer to the new site!
It's coming along decently if i do say so myself, only the last stretch is needed (2 more pages) for it to be ready to go up.
If you're reading this, thank's for sticking along! See ya soon >.<

oof coding is giving me a headacheee, i wanna do more stuff but i'm putting all my brainpower on this lol
so yall can expect a layout update.. someday soon :p

also, gaming session went real good! somehow my brother ended up third-wheeling but whatever <\3 altho roblox was chaos on saturday sooo, thats was wild

GAH OKAY, BIG UPDATES PEOPLE!! :D

first of all, I'M ACTUALLY CODING? (everything's held up by pure hopes, dreams, and sheer willpower to spite god). it's the most INEFFICIENT CODE ever, but we ball
oh and also! i learnt how to play mu by SEAPOOL on piano! kinda... just the right hand part heh, left-right hand coordination isn't my forte at all... BUT its such a cool song i LOVEEE IT. and yeah thats all i think... OHH and in a few hours my partner and I will have to get up early because they want me to play that one Grow a Garden update LOL :3

so my laptop and i are way too shit to try and code from scratch (´_`")
it sucks cause i had a vision of what i wanted to do but i cant understand css, its all just gibberish. god i hate not understanding and succeding at something first try! /s /hj

also my attention span suffers from watching basic tutorials on yt but i might have to if i wanna get as good at coding as some of the people on this place buh

wahh i just spent the whole day making a silly gif for a stamp (check out #graphics!)

alsooo i wanna change the layout of the blog and stuff, like an intro page and then the entries on another place and MORE STUFF. i wanna do so much stuff but my motivation and abilities to code are...nonexistent.
so i'll stick to drawing some more papyrus fanart yiipi

so i finally know why people say "no pain, no gain" cause MY LEGS. FUCKING. HURT. HOOOOOLY HELL. leg day isnt for the weak (i'm weak).
ANYWay, i finallyyy got some motivation to draw, been doing that when im not in pain and also been watching true crime documentaries, i definitely wanna work in the crime scene field sometime in the future

oh! and i also made plans with my partner to have some type of gamin sesh over the weekend, so thats something im definitely looking forward to! :3

i desperately want to add an "updates log" to the right side of this website, but i dont know how the fuck to code and frankensteining this shit is gonna take me a... long while to figure out, i fear.

i should go to sleep (i say, while opening up procreate and starting to sketch my drawing idea lol (￢⩌￢;))
_{ow ow my legs...}

god i LOVEEEE rarepairs, so i just made some more stamps about that >_> (you can check em out on the #graphics tag!)

sigh i bet you canttttt guess who my favorite undertale character isssss *cough*
might post some art tomorrow or soon if i get the motivation! :3

Stopped bedrotting today and went to the gym, my legs ARE HURTING SO MUCH T_T
I know it's for the best but holy fuck how do people do this EVERY DAY!!??

sometimes i just like to stare at my page's sidebar and admire the evergrowing trinket graphics collection that's going on there. lol

makin a wish rn, its 1:11 am!! soooo, fixing my sleep schedule is postponed!

In my defense, making pixelart blinkies is too much fun. but i swear making that Gaster stamp took away YEARS of my life... T_T
although i do love it very much, maybe someday i'll post my undertale fanart on here cause i swear i have more motivation to blog than to post on my ACTUAL social media accounts LOL

I've been wanting to do a LOT of things recently, but motivation just ain't hitting. Like, at all. It's not even artblock or that shit, just immobility.
I should fix my darn sleep schedule..

In other news, i've been going to piano classes for over a year! I'm...still not good.
Only recently i've dusted off my old keyboard and decided to ACTUALLY practice (whoops).

So far i can only play simple melodies since music sheets are like gibberish to me, my favs to play are L'autre valse de Amelie, a VERY MINUSCULE part of Bonetrousle, Oh! One true love, & Gymnopédie No.1 (probably my FAVORITE piano melody EVER)

sometimes you have to deal with change, even when you already had everything figured out. that fucking sucks.
life's crazy and no one can prepare you for how wild it can get so, stay safe. And maybe make a blog too, if you need someplace to vent, lol